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“Our Struggle” Poem by A. Roze

20 Jan

I will record audio of this poem shortly. But I wanted to go ahead and release this now. I feel like there is someone who needs to read it.

Thank you for my struggle.

The opportunity it brings is like no other.

The growth that comes starts from inside.

At first there’s pain when emotions collide,

But when the pieces begin to fit together,

I understand why you sent the bad weather.

You know I’m not the type who’d rather a handout,

So you give me an experience to make me stand out.

Make me humble like you are,

Make me strong like you are,

Make me deep like you are,

Make me understanding like you are.

You never have to prove anything to anyone.

Because you are in everything and everyone.

And yet when you are disregarded and denied,

You still never lose yourself as The Most High.

So why should I..

Feel less, feel regret, feel like there is no way to clean up this mess..

When really, could I..

Feel blessed by the best, feel loved, since I know my struggle represents

Your way,

Only way,

I got

To say,

No way,

I can’t,

Be brave,

No shame,

I have,

To pray,

On page,

Relate,

Replay,

Repay,

Repent.

Can’t Forget

The struggle

of Yahweh.

~A. Rozier

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“He Said” Poem by A. Roze

18 Jan

Since our 10 year wedding anniversary was yesterday, and our son is 4 months old today, I thought this would be a good one to post 🙂

You need to get out of here they said,

This place isn’t good for you.

What? They said, move across the country?!

Girl- you’d be crazy to!

You don’t know anyone,

don’t you wana have some fun?

Don’t get married yet- 18 is too young!

Plus- he’s black! Your kids will have it rough.

Oh, you’re going to college now? Isn’t it a little late?

It wouldn’t do you any good, they said,

doubt you’ll even graduate.

Start your own business? No way you’ll make it.

Those types are rich, and have an education.

I told you this would be hard, why don’t you get a job..?

Take it easy, slow down, you’re workin’ too hard.

Now you’re pregnant and broke, what you gonna do now?

Ya’ll need to start a business and get some money somehow..

They said.

I say,

I have been blessed beyond measure.

It was in the grace of my trials that I found the real treasures.

It wasn’t my ignorance, stubbornness, or being naive that got me through..

I simply would not accept their fears as truth.

All I knew, was that I would not be held down,

And by remaining calm and cool I found

Experience

Education,

Expression,

Family,

Fulfillment,

Joy,

Life,

Love,

God.

Not by falling for what they said,

Not by rebelling against the living dead,

No- just by standing, by believing

in what He said.

~A. Rozier

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A Second Chance

17 Nov

My husband and I have been blessed again with a beautiful baby. This time around there were no health problems or complications. We said hello to a healthy 9 pound baby boy on September 18th.

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About 8 months pregnant with the blanket I made for our son.              Elisha Cypher King Rozier

I didn’t share my pregnancy online until I was about 8 months along. My reclusiveness was out of fear, honestly. Fear that it was too good to be true. It really did not fully register that he would be here. That he would be real. After the loss of one child, the ability to accept the blessing of another is complicated. It was in my subconscious not to get my hopes up, in case something went wrong. I was already preparing for the worst. There was also a feeling of guilt. Like I was somehow forgetting or ungrateful for our daughter Areli because we had moved on. Like we were replacing her. Well, that just wasn’t true at all. But it’s funny how your emotions can fool your brain into thinking something is true when your mind/spirit is trying to protect itself. Continue reading

“The Distance” Poem by A. Roze

21 Jul

Now I remember what it feels like to miss you.

Like an empty void that no one else could fit through.

Mind starts racing, wondering if your ok,

Thoughts start chasing, running circles, no breaks.

Try to give myself back, to the moment at hand,

But it seems your the only thing, My subconscious understands.

The whole world suddenly seems so small,

As if there were nothing else in it at all.

No thoughts, no ideas, Or things to do,

No stories to tell If I can’t first tell you.

Now I remember how it feels to want something I can’t have.

Not like cars or clothes or jewelry or cash,

Cuz right about now, I’d give up any of that,

Just to have you back.

All those quirks that used to get on my nerves,

Can’t be worse than having to write this verse,

Just to ease my mind a bit,

Help myself get over it,

But its not working anyway,

No, not today, you just won’t go away,

Posted up inside my head,

Kicked off your shoes,

Made your bed,

Lying comfortably cuz you already paid your rent,

Chillin’ like a lazy Sunday.

I’ll just have to go a different route,

Let you be, Instead of trying to kick you out,

There must be a reason your here,

So i’ll let go of the fear,

And try embracing the doubt,

Since you’re obviously something I can’t go without.

Now it’s all becoming clear,

I just know I can feel your soul my dear,

Why was I even feeling down?

Just because you’re not around,

Doesn’t mean I can’t feel the sound

of your thoughts and emotions matching mine pound for pound.

We are one.

Can’t be undone.

Hearts entwined sometimes tricks the mind

Into feeling like we’re alone.

Funny though, that it’s because we’re so together,

That the distance makes us better.

Seems we grow closer through space and time.

No more knot in my stomach,

I know I’ll be fine,

I can rest assured,

My heart won’t hurt,

Tomorrow, when you leave again for work.

~A. Rozier

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Graduation! √ – Master’s degree. Movin’ Right Along…

7 Sep

It’s time to get real. Not that I haven’t been for the past four years, but working on a Bachelor’s, then Master’s degree has been one of the main focuses for some time now. And since I officially graduated on Friday, September 6th, much of my focus will now be directed toward caring for and expanding the Areli Sinclair clothing line.

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School can be rough on a business. It takes a lot of time that would normally be dedicated to projects and operations. Thankfully, Full Sail University takes great consideration of their Entertainment Business Master’s students. Many of our assignments were things that I could use for my business in real time and would have been doing on my own anyway. What can I say, I was able to write my own professional, realistic, thirty something page business plan by the end of it, and get so many great insights from instructors on everything from how to pitch it to investors, down to how to deal with employees on a day to day basis.

I met so many wonderful people- many connections that I know will never be broken. Finding people who have similar values and passions is priceless, expecially in the art industries.

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Now I am ready to take on the  “real” world and show them all I’ve got! I’ve molded my brand to perfection. Little did I know, it was molding me all the while. Personal situations that arose while in both my Bachelor’s and Master’s degrees all ended up becoming part of my brand story and a foundation for my life and my clothing line.

Your early 20’s are a funny time in life. You’re more mature than a teenager, but just coming into adulthood and finding out what life’s all about. Most times, it shows up with a slap in the face. I won’t hesitate to tell you that that is how it was for me. But there comes a point when you begin to realize that all those bumps in the road are there for a reason. This is the way growth happens. True happiness forms when we learn to appreciate all aspects of life, not just the good times.

In the end, I am so elated that I decided to go to school… and then back again. Many people didn’t, and still don’t understand my decisions. But that’s ok. Your life is your own, and living it to make the best “you” will end up being the best for everyone.

Onward and upward my loves… let’s see where the wind takes me from here 😉

~A. Roze

Growth in Life and Wardrobe

19 Aug

This weekend was a milestone in my life. My husband turned 30 and we celebrated 10 years since we met in person for the first time. These 2 important events have got me to thinking about how we evolve our personalities as we grow. This evolution usually relates to the public through your wardrobe. I often discuss the fact that you dress on the outside the way you feel on the inside, but the opposite is also true. To make yourself feel a certain way, you can dress your way to that feeling. Clothing yourself is a very psychological process that can show you to yourself, just as much as it reveals your personality to others.

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My husband asked me to make him a vest for his birthday. He said “I feel like a lion lately.” So he wanted a lion on the back of his vest and a cross on the front. 2 days later, his prestigious lion vest was done. He put it on and instantly his posture and attitude changed. He said he felt like it represented the moment for him. He felt like the vest showed wisdom and strength, which in turn added to the internal feeling that he had about himself.

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Time Management takes an Attitude Adjustment

13 May

21118_10200783224239620_1777369006_nLately time has been moving what seems like faster than ever. Even now I have to do this blog post in the middle of the night because I just got done with homework, dying my hair and trying to lay out plans for tomorrow. In a way, I feel like everyone is going through the same thing. I feel like there is something in the air. A shift happening. Like a change in the season. Maybe its because the literal season is changing as well.

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