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A Second Chance

17 Nov

My husband and I have been blessed again with a beautiful baby. This time around there were no health problems or complications. We said hello to a healthy 9 pound baby boy on September 18th.

Elisha Blanket

About 8 months pregnant with the blanket I made for our son.              Elisha Cypher King Rozier

I didn’t share my pregnancy online until I was about 8 months along. My reclusiveness was out of fear, honestly. Fear that it was too good to be true. It really did not fully register that he would be here. That he would be real. After the loss of one child, the ability to accept the blessing of another is complicated. It was in my subconscious not to get my hopes up, in case something went wrong. I was already preparing for the worst. There was also a feeling of guilt. Like I was somehow forgetting or ungrateful for our daughter Areli because we had moved on. Like we were replacing her. Well, that just wasn’t true at all. But it’s funny how your emotions can fool your brain into thinking something is true when your mind/spirit is trying to protect itself. Continue reading

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Areli Sinclair Rozier. My Angel.

23 Sep

So much has been happening in the past few weeks. Much more than a fb status or tweet can endure. So here I will unveil the scoop on things. You may know that I was pregnant, as I posted maternity designs and had you all vote on them. (more on those later). Well on Sunday the 11th, my husband and I had a beautiful baby girl. Areli Sinclair Rozier. Unfortunately, she only stayed with us for a few precious hours. She had a condition that was fatal. Something that is so rare that only 1 in 10,000 pregnancies will acquire it. We found out about 2 months ago about the condition, and as she was unharmed while inside me and not harming me, we decided to continue the pregnancy as abortion is simply not an option in my book. Devestation is the word that comes to mind, but that would be an understatment. Keeping this news to ourselves was no easy feat. I didn’t want a pity party, false sympathy, or to make anyone feel awkward or like they had to treat me a certain way. This experience has truly changed my life. Everything has happened so quickly. To think that a 5 lb, 2 hour old baby could alter my character so dramatically is awe inspiring. Her name, Areli, means lion of God, brave, courageous, heroic. Her middle name, Sinclair, means pure, renowned and illustrious. She fit her name so well. Just as calm as could be. She smiled, and even frowned when her Grandma took her from my arms to hold her for a moment. Now my angel, Areli gives me more strength than anything in this world ever could have. Which is why I’ve decided to change the name of my womens clothing line from Nevaeh Chyne to Areli Sinclair. It’s amazing to me that everything about the meaning of her name is what I have always tried to embody through my collections. She has given me confirmation. She has enhanced my reason to keep pushing for greatness.

Areli Sinclair Rozier


Three days after I had Areli, I was scheduled to show my latest designs at Millenia Mall’s Fashion Week. Deciding to continue my participation was tough, physically and emotionally, however it felt like the right thing to do. The show went well and I’m glad that I decided to go. More on the show in another post sometime soon.

Me Being Interviewed after showing my collection


As you can see in the photo above, I listened to your opinions and went with the dress your votes chose as the winner from the maternity sketches. I did however choose a color scheme that I felt was more suiting for me. Even though I was no longer pregnant at the show, the dress still fit pretty well.
All in all, the past 9 months, and especially the past few weeks have been the biggest emotional roller coaster of my life. And I’m so grateful to have been on, and still be on that ride.
-A. Rozier

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